From Fear to Gratitude

If someone had come up to me when I was 14 years old, and told me my life would one day look like it does now, I would’ve laughed in their face. I would’ve said, “Obviously, I am doing a great job hiding what is really going on for you to think my future would look like that.”

At 14, I couldn’t pass a 6th grade Math, or English test even if you’d given me a cheat sheet. I can still clearly remember the desperation and fear I felt as a 14 year old girl.  The girl scared to dream something better for her life. 

There's no place like home!

There's no place like home!

I think back to that young girl and am disappointed at the limits I placed on myself. Because I AM in a great place.  I have a wonderful job, I’m about to move into my first house all my own, and I have more people in my life who mean the world to me, then I could ever ask for. Life is good. And as the years go on, I’m coming to a point of gratitude for that 14 year old. I am thankful for the grit that kept her going, and the hope that drove her to never give up, even when she felt her dreams weren’t possible.  Even though my past sucked, I wouldn’t change what I have been through. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without all of the challenges, upsets and hurt I have experienced.  I know I wouldn’t have the same appreciation for the blessings I have now.

I am all grown up and facing new and different difficulties every day, but experience has taught me, they will all be worth it. 

 

 

"You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. You honor me by anointing my head with oil. My cup overflows with blessings."